When I was born, the refugee tag still existed on our
family. After partition in 1947 my
granny was migrated to Calcutta. By the time I was born our family moved out of
Ballygunge refugee camp to our house
in Kolkata. Granny built a house on the land given by the Government. My Father
was the second after my aunt and was only male child in the family with another
two female younger siblings. After lots
of struggle the family settled their own term. Elder aunt got married to Jamshedpur, as my uncle was a Tata employee
and my father too followed the suits. My second aunt was a nurse by professions
and younger one was working in Telephone and then transferred to Rationing
Dept. It was semi joint family with
too many guardians but it was a perfect childhood anyone can dream. So, I was
having privilege of growing up along with two
previous generations. In early days Granny
used to teach us and she was gifted with lots of knowledge that was rare on
those days.
When I am very young father
decided to take the family to Jamshedpur. I always considered my life in
Jamshedpur was picture perfect. We
had nothing compare to today’s kid yet we had everything which was incomparable.
Then out of blue I saw my not-so old folks standing in the queue.
No, it was not first-in-first-out basis
but sorted out randomly. Slowly, they departed and one too fast. My elder aunt was the first to go. She
died somewhere at the end of 60’s. Thereafter, got the most painful blow that I
yet to recover. In the end of 1971 I lost my mother. That incident changed my life completely, it was a 360
spin. Over four decades lost all of them one by, my Grandma and then second aunt.
My father died 1999.
It is said unless you loss you
don’t know the price. My youngest aunt was the sole survivor
from her generation. Somewhat, last man
standing or last line of defence to guarding the younger lot. She was childless and after my uncle death she
used to stay alone. She was very temperament and so we tried to avoid
her, never realized that she had none except handful of us. Lately, she lived
like any other unwanted old people. Only, difference was, people around her
could not ignore her completely due to her money
and property she earned with lots of pain and hardship. A year and half
back she decided to handover her house to promoter and shifted to a rental
apartment. Finally curtain fell on Monday 24th February, 2014 when we
lost her. Her only wish was to get back to the new apartment built on same land
remain unfulfilled. According to her
last wish her body donated to the
hospital. A journey that commenced in pre-independent era and that saw rare
happiness and more turmoil but it fade
away within a moment.
Today, while sitting on my desk
with loads of guilt, we made
thousand mistakes but cannot forgive
a small one committed by others. As past generation wiped off, finding myself
in the queue and can visualize the finish line but I know that one is a visual mirage.
!!!Hope, a time machine is a reality, only to turn
around the time and tried to erase the errors that I committed.!!!